The moment of truth.........

I knew I had become "larger" than I would have liked. However, it wasn't until we had a family portrait taken in August 2003, that I realised how "large" I had become. Sure, I was sporting a size 26 top and bottom (merging on a 28 top), but was still in denial.
Whilst pregnant with my son during 2002, I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes. Four times a day I had to inject myself with insulin, and complications arose throughout the pregnancy for both myself and my unborn child.
I figured I had the odds stacked against me - 122kgs, pregnant and in my early 30's. It wasn't until a couple of years later after tracing my paternal family history that I discovered my biologocal father had suffered from Type II diabetes. He was NOT overweight. He died at age 48 from this and other health complications.
In August 2003, my husband and I decided to have a family portrait taken. We were all set to go to the Gold Coast for our first real family holiday. Whilst attending the Theme Parks, I discovered I was having great difficulty fitting into many of the rides. A photo was taken of myself and my oldest child on the Scooby Doo Coaster - I almost died of embarassment when I saw that photo! I looked massive. However, I used the excuse that I was wearing a light coloured top and that had I been wearing my faithful black, it would not have looked so bad.
When we arrived home, we went and chose the final photos we wanted for our family portrait. Again I was dismayed, and could not believe how "big" I looked. This time I WAS wearing all black and there was NO hiding it!
In November of 2003 I joined Weight Watchers (WW) I weighed in @ 119.2kgs. I lost 14kgs before deciding I could no longer afford to attend meetings. I tried to go it alone, with little success, and was back up to 110kgs again before I knew it.
I was fortunate enough to find my half sisters I never knew existed in September/October 2004. When we met we were surprised to see how much alike we where, not just physically but emotionally as well. They were both dedicated WWers and had lost over 20kgs on the program.
After viewing the video of our meeting, I realised how large I was becoming again and decided, eventually, to rejoin WWers in the April of 2005. I continued on VERY slowly attending weekly meetings, slowly losing the weight but I don't think my head was in the right place at the time. In June 2007, I quit going to my meeting as WWers had decided to shut it down for 12 weeks, and no other meetings suited my lifestyle. This is when I joined online.
I managed to stay around the 85kgs I had dropped to (I even got down to 82.9kgs at one stage), but due to major stresses and any excuses I might use (and I use the word excuses lightly), I slowly crept back up to 94kgs over Christmas 7 New Year 2007/8.
The unlimited offer for WWers came about and here I am, back at meetings, and if I use excuses now I am only defeating myself, noone else.
I still have over 33kgs to go to get to goal, but this time I KNOW I will achieve this. My head is in the right space, I can recognise my triggers, and with all the wonderful support of my Leader, members both at my meeting and on the WWers forums, there IS no excuse for me to fail.
THIS TIME IS MINE!!!!!
I do hope that my story will encourage those considering taking this journey with me, an easier decision to make.
Kel